i´ve been in healthy relationships as i´ve been in toxic and emotionally, abusive relationships.
back than i did not know.
i thought, this person would love me and i knew this person had an lower self esteem and deep inner wounds, stigmatas i could not see.
so i tried to understand what this man was trying to „tell“ me.
he used words like „whore“ or called me „insecure“ and when he totaly freaked out one day – because i did not want to hug him, as he wanted , he would riot and scream at me and call me the worst things you can imagine.
back then i was shocked but told myself „this is not what you want. just run away as fast as you can, you are more, you deserve better, you deserve love and this is not love, it is not your responsibility to make him understand or see you.“